Strive to Overcome (Alone In The Spotlight) 2

‘Strive To Overcome’ (Alone In The Spotlight)

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This is one of those rare occasions where I did not have a set title for this piece at the time its work was in process. As I was interchangeably referring to it in notes and mention as both ‘Alone In The Spotlight’ as well as the ‘Strive To Overcome’, I like to think it represents both of those things — How I was feeling, how Mark was feeling, the reality and the will.

This is not a ‘new’ piece, but it is new to my DeviantART gallery. It first appeared on PNT FACEBOOK back in November for the Undertaker Fan Club’s 22nd Anniversary. Even though it was still not quite complete in my opinion, I was actually quite surprised by the reaction it received there.  Perhaps it’s just me being too damn hard on myself. Granted that I can’t stop mother nature, and I’d like to blame it (That night had been hit by a severe storm system that took down trees and knocked out power whilst I was working on this yet) but if I had started this 2-3 weeks prior to the anniversary date like I had been yelling at myself daily to do that month, this would have been more finished and refined in time for November 18th.

It’s hard to be completely honest about grief and depression. So many things hurt yet and it’s difficult admitting that I was not, still am pushing to be, where I wanted to believe I would be when the autumn came rolling in. The ‘Strive to Overcome’ is a real and personal statement. Each and every year that the fan club has been online, I would created and released some sort of exclsuive artwork (frequently featuring Undertaker and his Paul Bearer) that would become a graphic to honor the occasion at all of PNT’s main hubs.

Even as October closed, I thought I had prepared myself for the lack of William’s comments or calls this year. Apparently not so well. The 18th of November came and I don’t believe I have ever felt that so alone. I had the worst anxiety that day. Although I did post pictures of this work in progress I didn’t create any graphic this year; the first time in a lonnnn-g time. I can’t discuss how mark has been obviously and honestly I don’t believe that I have too. The lack of our Uncle Paul’s presence has hurt him just as much, if not more. You wonder how to go on. I think at the end of the day that is the question —Standing in this spotlight alone, how do we strive to overcome? Wrestlemania 30 is sure to be an emotional occasion indeed and much deeper than that obvious surface.

Graphite and Prismacolor pencils on a medium grade art paper., cir. 2013

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