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2/10 - Welp... I’m just going to be blunt with it and spare you all a long dribble here. Apparently results and scans from my post-op appointment showed that I’ve not healed quite the way I should be at this point. Not only is there more bone chips present, etc., but I have more tears in around the rotary and was informed that if it isn’t addressed right now ---even though I’ve actually felt the best I’ve been in years and that the first surgery was in fact successful for the most part--- if it isn’t taken care of that I’ll eventually just be exactly where I was at this same time last year. So I’ve been scheduled for another surgery this March 3rd. I have to go in on the 2nd for blood draw and all that other fine pre-op stuff. More than this, this surgery is unfortunately going to be more vasive than the first, meaning that this could mean a replacement rotary. Oh, lucky me.
...NOT AT ALL THE GOOD NEWS I WAS HOPING TO LEAVE WITH
I won’t know for certain until I meet with my primary on the 16th. She’ll be going over w/ me what all planned routes my surgeon wants to go with this time, what options I have and what not. Hopefully I’ll have something to tell you all then. This is one reason why I’m just going to go ahead with the tattoo chibi art for my daughter and get that at least finished for her and the Marty/Doc piece for my youngest. I want those finished for my kids’ sake because I haven’t a clue how long this recovery is going to last this second time. I appreciate in advance all your prayers and thoughts regarding this and I thank you.
~Shinju
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Total Eclipse of the Heart? #noeclipse
4/23- I had a feeling this day was coming, but I had hoped it wouldn't...
I’m really not so sure what’s going to become of my 14 years here on DeviantART when the Eclipse becomes mandatary next month, I really don’t. I've tried to use the Eclipse version a number of times now since its first rollout and I have never been able to stay on it very long before toggling right back to the original interface in order to properly find notes, communication, and get my grounding.
I have to be perfectly honest — I can’t guarantee staying. I don’t know. Perhaps DA intents to listen to our concerns and make improveme
We all lose steam, but....
8/7- I’m not dead, I swear. Although I do keep feeling like I’m just wasting my CORE membership month after month. (Insert convenient “Ug!” face)
Nonetheless, I have in fact been peeking in here I confess. I’ve been logging in, took a look at the new “Eclipse” set up, hated that so I switched back, browsing my notes, journals and new artwork from friends. But I haven’t been posting anything new because I haven’t been drawing. That fact’s reason isn’t quite as cheerful as the first paragraph.
If you recall my last journal, I said that I needed to "internet detox". That some t
Shinju doujin-bomb incoming? XD
1/26- Alright. I think this journal is in good need of an update, what do ya say?
I've been told i take things too hard. And I'm like that sometimes, you know? I suffer these "catastrophe failures" of my world, of my heart, and of my passion and suddenly my interest... that drive, leaves me. I have a counselor for this. It is one of the things I see him for every other week so I guess that I have been that way all my life to be honest. It's just the internet that I haven't had that whole time in which to make it all so much more apparent. I could go on and on with this, about all the whys and how comes, but I know already that I've been th
Stefan Karl 1975-2018
8/21- For someone who was never meant for this world, I must confess I am suddenly having a hard time actually leaving it. Of course, they say every atom in our bodies was once part of a star. Maybe I'm not leaving... Maybe I'm going home.
Oh, is there anything more difficult than finding that one comforting word in such an uncomfortable time? For the moment I am speechless and memories, like paparazzi cameras, are triggered by the most simple and unexpected of words, actions, and even music ... “We’re Number #1"
There is no pain so great as the memory of joy in present grief, Aeschylus said. And right now Stefan Karl is absolut
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How are you doing, Shinju? 
I've just found this journal update among the many that piled up while I'm not here (as often as I used to be). Hope the healing is improving and you won't have to go through another surgery again. Sending a hug and a prayer your way.
I've just found this journal update among the many that piled up while I'm not here (as often as I used to be). Hope the healing is improving and you won't have to go through another surgery again. Sending a hug and a prayer your way.